Searching for Shangri-la
But keeping busy with work hasn't stopped him from missing Kuo-chun. Six months ago, the Big Fish troupe revived Little Hunchback. When Chin-tou, the much-abused little hunchback who is the play's protagonist, dies near the story's end, his friend exclaims, "Chin-tou has returned to Hunchback Village. He won't ever be back!" But during this performance Huang misheard the line as, "Kuo-chun has passed away. He won't ever be back!" He nearly broke down.
The citizens of Ilan have long admired Huang's work. Seeking to do something for him following his son's death, they decided to help him realize a long-held dream--the founding of a literary journal. Pooling many small donations, they established the Big Fish Foundation for just this purpose.
The journal, called Jiu Wan Shiba Guai, published its first issue around the time that the Taipei-Ilan Expressway opened and now has about 2,000 subscribers. Huang's dedication to the journal and the theater troupe bring him back to Ilan every week, by train if he's too ill to drive. And he's often been known to stay late into the night touching up articles and working on the journal's cover.
"Modern people are always stimulated, but never moved," he argues, explaining why he is pouring his time into children's plays and a literary journal. "I want to stir the most basic emotions in everyone's heart."
For our last interview session, we met at Huang's Taipei home, where Kuo-chun's mother showed us photos from his childhood and some of the things he had made. Each time emotion welled visibly in Huang, he made an excuse to step out for a moment, escaping into another room before his grief grew any worse: "Let me cut up a persimmon for you. They're very sweet." "See, this is one of Kuo-chun's sketches. Isn't it good?"
When Huang was out of the room, Lin told us, "That's how he is; he just can't face it." In the three years since his son's death, Huang has broken down and cried at home only twice. He couldn't even bring himself to visit Kuo-chun's grave on the first two anniversaries of his death. He didn't make his first visit to the tomb until his old friend Yu Tien-tsung's wife died this year and was laid to rest near Kuo-chun.
One of the biggest changes Kuo-chun's death has wrought in Huang's life has been in his willingness to take care of his health, that is, he's taking better care of himself in order to better care for his wife. For her part, Lin has been slowly getting back on her feet with the help of religion and now worries most about all the feelings Huang has repressed.
The sorrow of parents who lose a child knows no bounds. Three years after his son's death, Huang hasn't surrendered to his grief, turned to religion or sought counseling. He says he doesn't want to forget any of the pain and doesn't like family and friends' constant offers of consolation, which he feels have caused his wife to wallow in self-pity. Instead, he's taken a different approach to facing his pain: "If you are a parent," he argues, "you have no right to kill yourself. You have to be brave and live on!"
The Huang Chun-ming Files
Life
Born in Luotung, Ilan County, in 1935. His mother died when he was eight, leaving five children. Graduated from Pingtung Normal College in 1958.
Has worked as an elementary school teacher, an electrician's apprentice, a radio operator in the military, an editor for a radio station, a documentary film maker, an ad man, and a manager with Adidas. His wife is Lin Mei-yin, and they have had two sons, Kuo-chen and Kuo-chun.
Literature
Published his first story, "Ching Tao-fu's Son," in 1956. Published his first collection of stories, The Son's Big Doll, in 1969. It was followed by The Gong, Sayonara, Goodbye, The Young Widow and I Love Mary. He won the Wu San-lien Award for Literature and the Arts in 1980. Since 1990, he has published Waiting for the Name of a Flower and the literary comic Wang Shanshou and Niu Jin.
In 1998, he published his long-awaited "senior citizens series" of short stories, which included "Dead and Alive," "Spring on Gray Whiskers" and "Here Comes the Ghost-Eater," in a collected edition entitled Setting Them Free for which he won the National Cultural and Arts Foundation's second annual literary award. He was also recognized as the most representative of Taiwan's contemporary Nativist authors.
In 2006, he began publishing the literary journal Jiu Wan Shiba Guai.
Television and film
In 1973, he filmed the documentary Fragrant Island about Taiwan, ushering in a new era in Taiwanese documentary filmmaking and literary reportage in the literary supplements to Taiwan's newspapers.
In the 1980s, a number of his short stories were turned into films, including "The Son's Big Doll," "Xiaoqi's Cap," "The Taste of Apples," "Sayonara, Goodbye," "A Flower in the Rainy Night" and "I Love Mary."
Theater
In recent years, Huang has focused on children's literature and children's theater. In 1993, he published "Huang Chun-ming's Fairy Tales" in five volumes--Little Sparrow, Scarecrow, The Emperor Who Loved Sugar, The Short-Nosed Elephant, Little Hunchback, and I'm a Cat.
In 1994, he founded the Big Fish Theater Group, which has produced The Earth Dragon Loves Cake, The Scarecrow and the Sparrow, Hanging a Bell, Little Hunchback and Little Lee's No Big Liar.
In 2003, he wrote and directed children's plays and Taiwanese operas. His writing and direction of Taiwanese Opera versions of Du Zichun and The Emperor Who Loved Sugar demonstrated his commitment to updating the art form.