From troublemaker to teacher
Although he now helps these lost sheep become shepherds of men, at one point Zhang was one of them.
Now in his early 40s, as a child Zhang dropped out of junior high to take to the streets with his older brother, getting into fights and, eventually, getting into heroin. At age 20, he was incarcerated. After being released, he found himself unable to resist old habits, falling back into using barely a day later. Before even a year of freedom, he found himself once again behind bars.
While in prison, he learned of his brother’s passing. Thinking about his brother’s violent death at such a young age, Zhang became determined to turn his life around, swearing to get off the drugs for good. In his efforts to keep that promise, he searched high and low for help, trying Western medicine, Chinese herbal medicine, acupuncture, and hypnosis, and even turned to “mystical elixirs” supposed to have been blessed by the gods. Nothing worked.
“Drugs are terrifying. They can completely mess with your mind and make you delusional,” says Zhang. He remembers the feeling of invincibility heroin gave him: nothing could hurt him, he thought, not even getting hit by a car. Lost in these delusions, he would run out into the road, causing people on scooters and motorcycles to get hurt trying to dodge him, which only led to him being even more convinced he was divinely protected.
But the drugs had taken their toll, and withdrawal left him with a running nose, a persistent cough, and a physical pain that went right into his bones. “Even my guts hurt, and I felt like just tearing them out of me.” Just when he’d had enough of the torture of withdrawal, a friend recommended to Zhang that he try a Christian rehabilitation center. Instead of relying on pharmaceuticals to kick the habit, patients and staff there read scripture, prayed, and used the power of God to help the addicts recover. On the first day, says Zhang, “I was in so much pain and all they were doing was sing religious songs. It made me want to scream and curse. I couldn’t sleep for days.”
On the night of the seventh day, as he rolled around the floor shaking, he began to pray: “God, if you’re really out there, please, give me a new life, and I will dedicate it to your work.” That night he slept a peaceful sleep, and since then he has honored his promise, becoming a preacher and sharing his experience.
Today, as the band performs at Taichung Prison, Zhang looks out and sees the face of a man he did time with 21 years ago. Emotionally, he talks about how much things have changed, how once they used to be on the same side, but now he is up on stage and the other man is still down there, so near and yet so far away.
A journey of hope
The tour has been full of hope and sunshine, but there have also been tears along the way.
When they performed at Hualien, Xiao-jie (not his real name) saw his cousin and close friend from his childhood that he hadn’t seen in six years. When Xiao-jie’s parents divorced, he went to live with his grandmother. He did well at elementary school, and no-one expected him to turn bad at junior high. When just in seventh grade, he was caught riding a scooter while drunk, at which point he was taken into custody. The next year he got caught drunk driving again, as well as getting busted for ketamine and fighting, ultimately resulting in his being sent to the Adolescents’ Home.
Now he is the drummer for the band and working part time. He’s even received a B-class restaurateur certification and earned acceptance to Kainan University.
“I never even thought going to university was a possibility,” says Xiao-jie, sharing his story and trying to encourage the cousin he was once so much like. “If I can do it, you can definitely do it!” Normally inmates aren’t allowed near the performers, but this time the warden makes a special exception, letting Xiao-jie’s cousin join him on stage. The two share a quick hug, and the whole place erupts in cheers.
“This trip has well and truly exceeded my expectations,” says Zhang. His children have bravely taken to the stage and shared their transformations, doing so with ease and confidence despite not being natural talkers. Along the way, they’ve become more optimistic about their futures, learned to cherish one another, and sworn to keep on doing such tours, providing encouragement to more inmates and bringing new members along with them on these journeys of growth.
The big finish for the concert is an original piece and Big Change’s theme song, “Turning Point,” with music by music teacher Huang Shijie and lyrics by the band members. By the time the song reaches the lines “When you fall, just start climbing again / Spread your wings and soar,” even the most hardened inmates are in tears; many prisons have even asked to make the song their “prison anthem,” keeping the band’s spirit of hope alive in the prison walls.
The story of Big Change is one of people who have become heroes to others in spite of their past circumstances, and shows us that with a little faith and love, we can change people’s lives. It also teaches us that no matter how dark things may get, there is always the light of dawn awaiting, ready to brighten even the cloudiest of hearts.